To be honest the past couple of years have just been Hell.
Don't get me wrong, there have been bright spots. But overall it is just shit. But lets discuss the bright spots as a reminder to myself lest I become ungrateful.
We have somehow been able to pay all of the bills. Yes Hubby is working nights at Hell and somehow I was able to get unemployment but I can't rule out Gods hand in that.
M is still staying upbeat and enjoys working in the wood shop. He has always been the upbeat child, much like myself. So it is hard to keep him down for long.
R and his wife are getting along and making the marriage work. Considering he thought they would be divorced by now this is a good thing.
J has a couple of groups of friends that are helping him through this. As much as he does not open up his friends help.
I can see God in our lives and I do try my best to be grateful. Right now it is harder than ever. This pandemic is causing an incredible amount of stress in our lives. (Yes I know we are not alone in that) Compounded with the stress of a child in prison and Hubby working nights...well...the tears comes in waves. We can go days without a thought and then it all slams home fresh again.
I know I know we will get through all of this. But life will never be the same. When M comes home the stress begins again because of the restrictions of the list.
For now we are just trying to survive. I guess that is really all that we can do.
Survive
