Pariahs

 Mamaw's funeral has come and gone. M not being there was palpable to us. 

This is rough.

He has no idea how what he did is affecting us and our lives. There was actually a bit of relief that he had not gotten parole. I am still not sure how we will cope when he does. 

One thing is certain, the sister in law and brother who said they supported us no longer do. The ones that we knew instinctively that if/when they found out they would not speak to us. We are not sure what happened but SIL would not even look at me and basically ignored us at the funeral. This was the woman who took me out to breakfast after she found out and said we were crazy for thinking they would not support us, How M was her nephew and no matter what he did she would be there for him/us. So much for that.

We have always considered ourselves the black sheep of the family. Nothing ever changes.